Date: 11/08/23
Mood: (ↀДↀ)✧

I've looked into my old PSDs so now I could finally make a button that I am satisfied with (it's not final, I'll look more and make a better one later). I was already questioning why I couldn't edit anything on PS anymore when I remembered that I've mostly saved my old PSDs (maybe I am too stupid lol).

But, anyway, I finally remembered why I made this blog section, and it wasn't to vent, but to share fun and interesting stuff that have happened in my life but I have no one to talk to. So I wanted to share two things today.

First, I discovered that Pinterest is a great place to find old and/or obscure movies, and animation movies and/or shorts. Pinterest is already a great social media to begin with, it's a media without the social because you can just save ton of different stuff (inspo art, sims cc, recipes, house decor ideas etc) and don't need to actually talk to anyone plus their algorithm is great because it search for similar looking images and actually works.

So I was browsing one day and found an unfamiliar weird movie and after looking for similar images I found a bunch of movies that I previously didn't know and added everything to my plan to watch list. Then, I've found a way to search anytime I want to, just search a movie name, animation movie, "movie poster", "obscure movie" or similar tags, browse until find an interesting movie, proceed with similar images until satisfied. Bonus: eventually the Pinterest I'll suggest new related pins when you log in so there wouldn't be any need to search.

Second, I started reading picture books recently. I found out that some movies that I've watched and loved were based on picture books so I thought why not? Then I discovered that some picture books have really gorgeous art (also are quite relaxing too). I'll just recommend some of my new favourites: The Complete Collection of Peter Rabbit and Brambly Hedge, Angelina Ballerina, Eloise, The Story of Ferdinand and Sagwa the Chinese Siamese Cat.

Date: 27/07/23
Mood: exhausted

I have been busy lately so I was unable to update my site, then I thought of updating now that I on vacation but I can't because some spawn of Satan opened a hell's establishment next to my house which plays loud music ALL the night, 12 hours a day. And actually, two establishments opened, one play loud music at night (I mean not only loud, it's deafening) and the other one is on weekends. I mean, I am sure that Hell opened on the sidewalk and Satan himself took these people here to make the life of everyone here Hell.

This started on the end of last month, I was on bed sleeping when I listened to some loud music and at this point I thought that it was just some stupid neighbor throwing some stupid party, but it didn't stop with one evening. The next week I had to deal with the loud music every single day, but I thought ok, I had some noisy neighbors before and it would stop soon but it didn't. The next Thursday I had to hear loud music all night (from 4pm to 4am), then Friday, then on Saturday it was from 10am to 4am of the NEXT day, then again on Sunday. On Monday it stopped but it started again on Tuesday to Friday (all night) and I was really tired and couldn't sleep properly at night. I was in zombie like state at Saturday morning and I thought what I would do with my life from now on but in this Saturday I didn't heard any noise (except a neighbor but I was glad that the noisy wasn't from the same establishment).

Then I didn't have any noise until Thursday night when I was going to bed and it was 11pm but I just thought that it was nothing, I was too tired already and went to bed. Then I woke up at 4am with really noisy deafening bass music and it lasted until 7am. And that was last Thursday, a week ago and since then I couldn't get properly sleep at night and I am really stressed and feel like trash (I have no problem getting sleep whatsoever, never had, so I don't know how to function like this). And I even have to listen to this while I type this.

The worse problem is that the law system is shit in my country, so if I called the police nothing would work and it could be worse because they could get a grudge with me (I even saw from my house a police car pass by this establishment last Thursday when they were making deafening noises at 4am and it just passed by and did nothing, I got so mad latter when I found out that the owners put their speakers on the sidewalk). So the worse part is that they can do whatever they want and I can't do anything to stop them and I have to suffer and accept it.

But I won't accept it! I tried praying for it to go away but it didn't so I also started to curse them and today when I was passing by it I thought of a long curse in my head then spat on their sidewalk so I am hoping that it'll end soon (and by soon I mean this week). I even searched some curses online but they were too complicated and didn't always worked so I'm trying my own way (I saw online that a curse can come back to you but I refuse to accept it because THEY are in wrong because if you robs someone of their peaceful evening, of their night of sleep and torment them it makes you a evil being to the curse is to get your just deserts).

Date: 06/06/23
Mood: (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

I just decided to inaugurate my new blog section today, instead of rumbling on the neocities profile page like it's a blog. (The cute doll image is unrelated to the story).

I am got really mad when I was commuting on the bus today. So, the story goes like this: mostly of the seats on the buses here are double seats (so you have to seat with someone next to you when the bus is full) and I don't like to seat next to a stranger man so I just seat on the corridor seat when I alone so if someone wants to seat on the window they'll have to pass me first. But this time a old guy wanted to seat next to me (he didn't even politely asked and just stood still next to me, and I was reading a manga so I didn't notice at first) but the bus did have a free seat in the front of mine so I just say "there is a free seat here" and this guy got annoyed and said that I "wanted exclusivity" and that I "couldn't command him where he should seat". I got surprised that I didn't know what to say and I didn't wanted to make a racket so I just let him seat on the window seat then returned to my seat and keep reading that I was reading before.

I am annoyed that I had to do this. I wanted to seat on another seat but the free seats were on the back on the bus (that I also don't like because of safety reasons) and I was a bit afraid that this guy could mark me or something so I just pretended that nothing happened (but if this guy started to act like a creep I was ready to get off the bus and get another one).

I usually just go to another seat when a guy wants to seat next to me (it happened before), but this time I didn't have another free seat to seat and I didn't wanted to stay standing on the bus, also I didn't know this creep guy would make a racket. I'm so pissed u_u